TRUST

I have yet to learn how to trust in you. I tell myself, "oh everything is okay and nothing will break the connection we have." Yet we all experience jealousy and it over powers our train of thought. Does this ever go away? Its not that I don't trust you, it's that I don't know how to let you live your life and yet be the only person in your eyes. Why do we want things we can't have? My trust in you is like the first time I only want those 3 hours back where we talked and We were honest and upfront with each other. I know you don't give me reasons to not trust you but your never around either so how am I supposed to trust you. I know we are not together. Those 3 hours give me hope that we will one day but sometimes thats not even enough. I feel like I am asking to much but at the same time is it wrong for me to ask this of you.

When your with me all my problems disappear. Yet when your not around all this doubt fills my head and I don't know how to get rid of that instinct. I am sorry I bug you about all of this and I don't mean to do it. It kindof just happens. I tell you this all the time and yet I still don't think you understand why I feel this way. But then again I can't read your mind and we don't talk that often.

Advice for men:

Tell women how you feel!
Be honest with them always!
Don't be afraid to cry infront of women!
If you don't like the girl don't lead her on!

Thinking out loud

We all have some type of faith and yet we say we are doing the "Christian Thing" by not accepting people who aren't part of our beliefs or religion. I don't get it. I am a christian and I can say that I know I have discriminated against people not because of their race or ethnicity but because I just chose not to like them. I know we all make mistakes too but Where does it STOP? I think I am going to try something NEW and befriend a new person every day and see how long I can keep it up. It will be hard but who knows maybe I will change for the better because of it. I am tired of all the clicks and groups that think they are better then everyone else just because of the sports they play or the things they have done in their life. I mean we all should be equal in each others eyes because I am sorry but that is how GOD made us. So yeah this is me thinking out loud and if you don't like it don't read it or tell me. But I am just being HONEST

Just Me!!!

My name is Heather and I am a student at CSUCI. I am a crazy and silly, all around girl. I am currently 20 years old and I am loving life. I have awesome friends and a great family.  This is my first blog spot besides facebook. So we shall see how well this works out.

I love watching movies. My favorites are the Disney Classics like Anastasia, Little Mermaid, Finding Nemo, Beauty and the Beast, and many more. I like all sorts of movies though from action, adventure to drama and horror. I like to play sports but most of the time I just like watching. I would say I'm pretty fit and stay athletic. There is never a dull moment with me. I know how to have a good time and yet I don't go out every weekend either. I love going to the beach and bowling. I am a shopper and yet I don't have to live at the mall. I have two tattoos and alot of peircings but what can I say I am unique. I have a heart the size of something imaginably huge and I love everyone unless you hate me. I am honest about mostly everything or I try to be at least. I love taking pictures and yeah.  Thats all I can think of right now if you want to know more about me and my life post a comment and I will work with the posts. Other wise I will post poems or letters or things I feel mean something to me.